You Don’t Find Your Calling/Karma – Your Calling/Karma Finds You
There comes a stage in our lives, when we all yearn for our `Calling’; we search for our `Calling’. What is the 1 thing that will define us? What is the 1 thing that we’ll be happy to do for the rest of our lives – and perhaps in all the future lives that unfold before us?
Few weeks back, I was idly observing the squirrels in my balcony over my afternoon cup of tea. 1 little fellow was meticulously cutting away wires from my strands of Diwali lights; another young chap had made my potted plants his forest, and needless to say, his basic instinct destroys a few of them, now & then. To save my plants, I have created a basket of dried flowers for him to jump around & frolic in; as for my strands of lights, I have given up lighting my balcony for want of any other solution.
Looking at them – a thought unfolded from the basis of my Hindu philosophy of upward mobility & reincarnation: looking downwards from my humble stage of human evolution today, I couldn’t help wondering about the soul progress of my squirrels. How long exactly before they rose up the ladder? What exactly would they turn out to be when they reached a stage of human evolution?
It is with these subconscious questions, that I fell asleep that night, chanting my mantra-of-the-moment: `Shri Krishna Sharanam Mama”. I woke up early next morning on the finishing threshold of a dream. My dream was thus: My squirrel no.1 had transformed into a tall, handsome human, who clearly was a Handyman & whom I saw fixing things up efficiently, and putting things in place. My squirrel no.2 was a Gardener & whom I saw putting in place a beautifully designed garden of exotic pots and plants. I heard a strange voice saying inside my head “this is the future of your squirrels”. The dream ended, I woke up.
What I have just described is a dream – and must be treated as one; but from this dream of mine – sprung forth a philosophy.
The philosophy goes thus – What we destroy, we must create. What we hurt, we must heal. What we yearn to do today, is what we have undone in a distant past. What we are searching for today, is what we had, and what we threw away. That is the final balancing of Karma. That is our `Calling’.
When we destroy, hurt, undo or throw something away – it is not intentional. It is never executed with a conscious mind or desire. Most of the times, it happens as an unconscious, unwarranted reaction to circumstances. At that point in time, we neither create the circumstances nor do we plan our reaction to it. Reactions are usually spontaneous and on-the-spur-of-the-moment. In lower life forms, we are probably acting according to our birth; we do not know any better.
It is the sum total of these reactions, unwittingly & unconsciously executed, that forms the foundation pit of our future Calling; our final balancing of Karma at a later stage.
A friend of mine from Graduation college, runs a super successful, super profitable matrimonial agency in my hometown. I commented that it was strange a qualified Chartered Accountant should have chosen this profession. He jokingly retorted that he was paying his debts for breaking up all those couples back in college, because he was jealous that those gorgeous girls hadn’t dated him instead. A joke, of course. But it had a deeper meaning. We don’t choose our profession. Our profession chooses us according to what we need to balance.
Another dear friend of mine, a qualified Pharmacy & Management graduate has had a compulsion to teach since she was in high school. Today, she says she has found her Calling. Maybe it’s the other way round. What she needs to balance out, has come back to her.
My better-half is curious about my `Calling’: Why do have an urge to write, he asks? I can’t find a blank piece of paper in house to scribble even a number.
My urge to write stems from my urge to give away information – and to give it away free of cost. To simply throw it away into the Universe, and hope it touches the life of at least 1 person. Information given away = Knowledge. That’s what I read somewhere. By giving away Information, Knowledge is what I hope to earn. What I may have done, in a distant past, to have ignited this urge to share information – that I do not know. Maybe I stole important information; monopolized it; hid it; prevented others from having access to it – and in the process I may changed the course of many lives. Today it comes back to me as an urge to give it all back; as much as I can; and with no barriers.
Every Saint has a Past, every Sinner has a Future. That’s what I read somewhere. It only means that all those misdirected souls hurting the World today in a bad way by infusing death, destruction & hatred – will have to return someday Messiahs of love, peace & healing. That’s not such a bad thought, except that you wish & pray it happens sooner than later.
First – We create the foundation pit of our Calling through acts that are not consciously executed; perhaps even innocently so. But in this stage, we unwitting destroy or undo.
Second – In a higher form of human evolution, we feel an urge to `create’ or `do’ a particular activity that draws us to it. Here we learn the `trade’. We start from ground zero. We strive, we labor, we struggle towards perfection.
Third – We progress to a stage where we have achieved perfection; this is when we experience `Love’ for what we are doing; we reap the fruits of the seeds we have sown; this stage earns us name, fame & wealth in Earthly terms. We are recognized as being `good’ at what we are do. This is the stage of Maslow’s `Self-Esteem’.
Fourth – We yearn to the same things, but now it is beyond Self. We now wish to use our perfection of a Craft to better others’ lives; to heal them; to help them. This is the Self-Actualisation stage of Maslow. We strip ourselves of name, fame, wealth & go right back to ground-zero – but this time by choice, not by compulsion. It is here that we will earn our place as the humble messiahs of this world.
Coming back to my 2 squirrels from the brood – my Handyman squirrel will surely work his way up to be an Architect who will build lasting monuments of beauty for the world & my Gardener squirrel, an Environmentalist definitely. Amen.
So the next time you hear someone wondering/pondering about their Calling, their Karma – ask them to be still and let go. Their Calling will come to them, when things fall in place for the balancing of their Karmic accounts. It has already been scripted in a distant past. They just don’t know it yet.